Midnight thoughts

Tonight as I read this great talk I was impressed by a key concept of having the faith to "not be healed" is as important as having the faith to be healed. The scriptures are replete with instances where Christ performed a miracle by the power of the priesthood. For him, it was easy and second nature. He was so close to this power, so perfect, has such understanding that it would not be hard.

Yet, there must have been instances where he did not heal. Where he did not raise the dead. When he knew that he must let nature take its course. Just like today, sometimes the miracle comes and sometimes it is not part of the plan.

How difficult it must've been for him to not do something in that moment. With infinite power at his disposal, not doing something must've been difficult. After all, each instance of healing lifted people's faith. To choose to not heal must've had a negative effect on those around him. It's an idea to continue to swirl on.

Tonight I find myself restless. Work is stressful with the recent layoffs and uncertainty. School begins and I'm worried to teach my first class. I am struggling with my commitment to stay fit and healthy as the stresses mount. Every plate that I have spinning seems to be wobbly and ready to fall. 

Yet, I need to have faith. I also need to give myself a break. I can't be expected to be the best teacher year one - that would be completely impossible. I've never done it before, and there will be much to learn. This is as much about me imparting my knowledge and advice, as it is about me learning if it's something I'd want to do more regularly. Even with my health choices - I'm still a newbie here. Of course there will be challenges and difficulties - I knew this day would come. How I attack it is the only thing that matters.

It reminds me of a great article that I recently read by Steven Lund, President of Nuskin, in a BYU Law magazine. In it he talks about how he has faced a number of real challenges - personally and professionally. In these challenges, he noted how he began to invite God into these challenges. 

He asked God to "Soldier with me". "Practice law with me." "Negotiate with me."

What a powerful concept. I know that God wants to be active in our lives. Yet, he always wants to be invited. His mighty arm is outstretched - only I choose whether to reach myself.

And reach myself is what I need to do. I need to turn over my work stresses to Him. My teaching stresses. My family stresses. He will not take them away, but in them he will strengthen me. I believe it's true and want to test in my life now. 

Midnight thoughts

Tonight as I read this great talk I was impressed by a key concept of having the faith to "not be healed" is as important as having the faith to be healed. The scriptures are replete with instances where Christ performed a miracle by the power of the priesthood. For him, it was easy and second nature. He was so close to this power, so perfect, has such understanding that it would not be hard.

Yet, there must have been instances where he did not heal. Where he did not raise the dead. When he knew that he must let nature take its course. Just like today, sometimes the miracle comes and sometimes it is not part of the plan.

How difficult it must've been for him to not do something in that moment. With infinite power at his disposal, not doing something must've been difficult. After all, each instance of healing lifted people's faith. To choose to not heal must've had a negative effect on those around him. It's an idea to continue to swirl on.

Tonight I find myself restless. Work is stressful with the recent layoffs and uncertainty. School begins and I'm worried to teach my first class. I am struggling with my commitment to stay fit and healthy as the stresses mount. Every plate that I have spinning seems to be wobbly and ready to fall. 

Yet, I need to have faith. I also need to give myself a break. I can't be expected to be the best teacher year one - that would be completely impossible. I've never done it before, and there will be much to learn. This is as much about me imparting my knowledge and advice, as it is about me learning if it's something I'd want to do more regularly. Even with my health choices - I'm still a newbie here. Of course there will be challenges and difficulties - I knew this day would come. How I attack it is the only thing that matters.

It reminds me of a great article that I recently read by Steven Lund, President of Nuskin, in a BYU Law magazine. In it he talks about how he has faced a number of real challenges - personally and professionally. In these challenges, he noted how he began to invite God into these challenges. 

He asked God to "Soldier with me". "Practice law with me." "Negotiate with me."

What a powerful concept. I know that God wants to be active in our lives. Yet, he always wants to be invited. His mighty arm is outstretched - only I choose whether to reach myself.

And reach myself is what I need to do. I need to turn over my work stresses to Him. My teaching stresses. My family stresses. He will not take them away, but in them he will strengthen me. I believe it's true and want to test in my life now.